I have fallen in love with 'Avatar'. Dude I couldnt get it out of my head all night or all day. That movie was all kinds of gorgeous. It was epic and beautiful, and made ME wish I could go there. How awesome is that??

My mind has been running non stop. I feel the itch to draw the Na'vi and hope that I do them justice. It gave me ideas for my own work, another awesome sign. I mean, I lay awake thinking about it, how REAL the world of Pandora felt to me, and I want that feeling to be in the world I create.

It was pure, unaltered inspiration.

That said, I must state now that it was the regular viewing I got to see, not the 3D version I wanted to see. It was sold out. But now I want to see it in 3D, to feel that world again, and I will do it, probably this next week.

No, I have not gone crazy. Its hard to explain how deeply this movie moved me.

First the major change: I do NOT work for Officemax anymore. And frankly, I will NEVER work for that company again. Id rather STARVE before Id submit to that corporate slavery. And anyone considering working there? DONT DO IT. It is just not worth the stress it caused.

I am now working at the local Barnes and Noble for the holidays and I am hoping it becomes permanent. Here's hoping..

Anyway..

These last few days have been food for thought for me. After all the shit that was thrown at me concerning my choice to leave OfficeMax, I am realizing that that place pretty much destroyed any kind of loyalty I might have had for that place, that my longevity means absolutely nothing to a place I had given nearly 5 years of my life to. I was ripped down until all I was was a number, a number that wasnt doing what a good little corporate drone should be doing, and in thanks I got a boot up my ass. Thanks. Thanks so much! Bleh.. Feelings of betrayal as the letter of reference that was promised never came, with no explanation as to why. Upsetting yes, but what can I do? It all ended up being completely meaningless when it came down to it, and that was irritating and very, very saddening.

If anyone I worked with, or the manager herself, ever reads this, frankly, I dont really care. I told her how I felt and shot down her attempts to lay the blame for the fall of my department on me leaving them high and dry, but it was her and her lousy working of the schedule that has done it. I told her I was angry that it came down to this, but I left it behind. Im done with that place, and I will tell everyone I know to AVOID that place. It is NOT a good work environment, they care more about money and numbers than they do good customers. BAH!!

*stalks off to find better things to do*

Jack, my lovely car, is sick. :C

Well, at least it was only sparkplugs and wires that needed replaced. Im just thrilled its less than 300 dollars to repair. Darn cars...

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Not much else on the artistic front. I wish I had more time for it, that and, well, I wish my computer could take opening Photoshop without sounding like its going to croak.

I got a job at the book store. I started last week, and have been working about 15 hours a week. Was so nervous the first night but Im getting the hang of it. Its the OTHER job that is giving me heart burn. :<

Im hoping it works out that they will offer me a permanent position in January. If not, oh well.. But I guess Ill have to see, wont I?

got my drafting table about two weeks ago. Too bad it took me this long to break the poor thing in. artwork to follow I hope. Yuri inspired me to draw Kyrinn again. MWAAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA

And my poor hubby, he is sick. Has the flu, Im pretty sure. So that means by default Ive a bored little boy with nothing to do on my hands..